When I studied at the conservatory and looked at more experienced musicians I was fascinated how many of them are dissatisfied with their performances. "Wow, what a high standards they have!"
I realized ages later how this habit - not to be unsatisfied with yourself - affects your self esteem, motivation and Communication patterns.

Being dissatisfied with some aspects of your playing is normal in some phases of a professional path. It helps us keep high quality of performances and achieve greater results. However for many artists these moments of dissatisfaction turn into a huge thing of self criticism. A good intention - to grow professionally and personally - becomes a persistent problem when you don't see anything good in your music.
It's impossible to focus on mistakes and weaknesses in one particular area - only in profession. This habit quickly widens to other areas of life, too. It holds the focus not only on your weakness and mistakes but on mistakes of the others, too. Somehow you keep noticing a missed jump or wrong note by colleagues instead of plenty amazing things.
Somebody calls it "professional deformation". I don't.
Accepting our own mistakes and flaws allow us to develop a mindset of integrity and sufficiency and grow not because "I can't play properly / fast enough /stable" but because "I'm curious what I can DO more"
The ability to perceive good aspects of the playing is a necessary foundation for a healthy self-confidence and effective work.

You can try 2 simple questions that help you switch attention to the strong sides of your playing. They will also help get the whole picture of while practicing.

In the next post I'll share these magic questions. Follow me on Instagram or LinkdIn not to get lost
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